Are you kidding me?

I have been running for months and have soo many miles on the treadmill, but I haven't been doing crossfit. Mistake Number 1. Well I go to my first Crossfit class in months and of course its pull-ups and dead lifts. Just saying those two makes me laugh. I love pullups and I can kip, but I knew I was going to rip my hands because I haven't done them in forever. But I HATE deadlifts. I hate them with a passion, mostly because I am a stubborn woman and will put too much weight on the bar. So of course do the workout and rip my hands horribly. After a couple of hours after the workout I can already feel the soreness. Wake up this morning..and no lie I can barley cross my arms over my body. The first words out of my mouth this morning...you've got to be kidding me. I am writing this post so I remember this moment. I never want to be this sore again so keep up with the crossfit Ashley..lets never take a break again..just not worth this feeling:)

And if that doesn't make you laugh I am sure this will. For all you crossfitters you know how ripping your hands feel. Its nasty, dirty, and painful. Well its VERY painful when you forget about those ripped hands and throw shampoo all over them in the morning to wash your hair in the shower. I screamed like a baby.

So I have a date with crossfit tomorrow...hope she doesn't totally destroy me, but if I know her by now I know she will. Looking forward to it.

Two Posts in ONE day..

Yeah I realize I already wrote today, but of course after I write this beautiful note of how wonderful my son is..guess what happens? Sassattiude comes out full force tonight. After repeatedly not listening and talking back I found myself wanting to scream. Just picture this..after he dumped shredded paper all over the place (after I specifically told him not play with it of course) I told him he wouldn't be leaving the kitchen till he picks up every piece of paper. I know what a mean Mom am I. He looks at me and in the most rude little turd voice goes whatever you say Mom rolling his eyes. Excuse me who is this little boy and what did he do with my sweet boy? I am hoping that this goes away by tomorrow, but tonight I will be enjoying my glass of wine:) or two:)

He is officially growing up ..

So the other day as I was strapping Braxton into his convertible car seat I realized it was no longer working. The kid is just too big for it. The straps were just too tight around his little chest. I seriously dreaded this day for a long time. The car seat was the only thing I was holding on to that still made Braxton a "baby" in my eyes. I cringed and told Conrad it was time we buy booster seats for Braxton. We find the perfect one and the other day I throw it in my car and I lost it. Seriously in my garage full out crying. What in the world is wrong with me? See I have moved Braxton into everything toddler and the car seat was all I had left. We have went to sippy cups instead of bottles, a toddler bed instead of crib, and the list goes on. In the garage it finally was real for me..he is growing up and as much as I want to stop it I can't. I mean seriously the kid is 3 1/2..how in the world did that happen so fast? I still remember having him like yesterday. I think I hate him growing up because I know I can never go back. As much as I hate that time is going so fast I have to admit that I adore the stage we are in right now. Braxton is like my bestfriend. He has so much personality and the biggest heart. For example, the other day he caught me crying even though I tried VERY hard for him not to see me. He jumped on my lap and told me that Daddy told him to take care of me while he was gone and he didn't want to see me sad. He wiped my tears and kissed my cheek. Made me feel so blessed. The love a child gives is so amazing. This stage also makes me realize how much I want to hold on to it forever. I am #1 in Braxton's eyes. As he gets older I see his interests growing and hobbies he enjoys. At some point in his life I wont be his number one priority and right now I cannot even imagine that. The bond I have with this little boy is indescribable and I don't want it to go anywhere. So to Braxton just know I may be your mother, but I am also your friend and I will always be here for you. You are my prince and the love I have for you will NEVER go away. You and your Daddy make me the happiest I have ever been:) Thanks for being you!!

Now on to my amazing husband Conrad who is gone this week in L.A. He has been working a lot so I haven't had a lot of time to talk to him. I am anxious to hear what LA is like and if he has seen any celebs. I told him to make sure he stops at Louis Vuitton and pick me up a bag, but I don't think that will happen:) He is working really hard and I am just so proud to be his wife supporting him through this new journey. Sometimes I hate it, but I know without this job I wouldn't be able to go to school. God has provided for us so I have to learn to love it. From now on I am trying to look at this job as a growing time for our relationship. Since Conrad is gone a lot I REALLY have realized how lucky I am to have such a STRONG man in my life. Conrad is an amazing father and husband. He does things for me that I didn't think anyone would do. I trust him with everything I have and more importantly I love the person he has made me grow into.

I started working out at CrossFit South Bend this week. I have taken a LONNG break from there and was just running, but that got old fast. It felt AMAZING to be back working out with people in the gym and I need to make sure I make time out for myself to workout. It makes me such a better Mom when I do something for myself and I totally realized that yesterday. Having a husband gone a lot and going to school I spend a lot of time with just my 3 year old. Which isn't all bad, but sometimes I just need some adult time and working out gives me that. Not that I don't LOVE talking about doggies all day with Braxton:)

Well I am off to my anatomy class. Hope everyone has a GREAT Wednesday!!!

What Santa left me for Christmas..

Don't worry people I am still here...

Anyways the holidays have come and gone and the one thing I am left with is holiday weight. Yuck. I spoiled myself so bad over the holidays. Now its time to get rid of the sweets. Oh I will miss them. Back to reality. Braxton has even been working out with me which is truly hysterical. The other night I couldn't get to the gym so I decided to do our p90x videos. Braxton wanted to work out too so he put on his shorts and tennis shoes and was ready to go. He did the whole tape, but what was so funny is he followed my every move. It really is true that kids will follow whatever you do and I appreciate the fact that I am teaching Braxton how important it is to take care of your body. He loves to work out and asks to do it all the time. He is such a good boy.

We have been so busy latley. Conrad is in busy season and I can already say I am not that big of a fan. He is gone all the time. Next week he is going to L.A. That should be very interesting for him. He really is loving his job though and it just seems like a perfect fit for him so I am VERY proud.

School has started up again. I decided to not beat myself up this semester so I am only taking 8 credits. Thank God! Seriously they are both hard classes I don't think I could handle much more.

Braxton is back in school and loving every minute. He is learning so much and sometimes he just surprises me on how much he knows. He also in LOVE with cooking right now. He always says lets make a recipe mommy. It is something we love to do together. He especially loves baking at Nana's house because you know she does all the cookies, cakes, and whatever else yummy Braxton can talk her into. (Which trust me isn't very hard and my Mom will be the first to tell you that).

Well I am off to do laundry. I cannot believe how much laundry 3 people can make in one week. Where does it all come from??

Update

So we went to Indy and I LOVED this doctor. He was beyond awesome and gave Braxton the attention he deserves. He told me he felt everything was in line and the only thing he was concerned about was his leg length. However, this could fix its self on its own and probably will. Either way he wouldn't do anything about it until Braxton was older so we will wait and see. Braxton is doing really well. He limps every once in a while, but it is getting much better. We hope he will make a full recovery and we are doing everything to make that happen.

We have been so busy lately with the holidays. It has been wonderful though. Our family had a WONDERFUL Christmas. Braxton was soo excited for Santa this year and I enjoyed it probably more than he did. To see his reactions were completely worth it.

Tomorrow I am back to school. I cannot say I am too excited about it. This semester I am not taking as many classes as I did last semester, however, my classes are a lot harder so I think this semester is still going to be tough. Braxton is excited to get back to school, but I really have enjoyed being home with him.

Conrad is working a lot and starting busy season. I don't think either one of us is looking forward to the next couple months with him being gone a lot, but we will get through it.

I hope everyone has a GREAT new year & we will keep you updated as much as we can.